The horrors of the pandemics sickness death andthe incomprehensible long shutins that people have had to endure along with the strife of Black Lives Matter and political turmoilwere unrelenting in their multiple waves of despair. It kept slamming us down over and over again not letting us rise to our feet or get a mental grip of what is right and wrong who is friend or foe spinning us out of control with ourselves and others. Putting pieces of my soul on paper during these last 10 months making